Moving on ...

There is one difference between the road trip and life trip. You can’t reverse the life trip. Whichever decision you make, you need to stick with it. There is no way back, even if it was not you, but the (mis)fortune making the decisions – and I mean things like dying of the loved ones or life threatening illnesses.

There are also other life changing events, which we can read about thanks to the internet. There are counselling sites, scientific sites, insurance companies sites … and you just wonder. Are all those people concerned about my life changing event?

Well, not exactly. Everyone is (and should be) concerned about his/her own survival, especially if he/she has some dependents. But not everyone knows, what you need without asking questions. Nowadays all counseling sites presume you look for some counselling, scientific sites may presume, that you know some basics and insurances just want to insure you for whatever can happen.

In a way, it’s like nearing the crossing, making your decisions where to go and all passengers giving you their own advice, how you should behave – turn left, right, slow down, accelerate … the situation prone to a disaster.

I was once diagnosed with quickly growing Non-Hodgkin B-cell Lymphoma. At the time I was living in England, which was not my home country. I’ve read a lot about the illness on the internet. Also the comments, not realizing, that chemotherapy is just a type of the therapy. Everyone’s chemotherapy then depends on the type of the cancer, on the stage of the cancer and maybe on some other factors too. I remember I was fed up with the wording the doctors used – lymph nodes – which – being a foreigner – I didn’t connect to “cancer”. I even complained …

15 years later I’m still alive. I have three great kids, I was able to know my grand kids too, for which I’m grateful, on the other hand I needed to sign the divorce, for which I’m not so grateful. But as stated at the beginning – there is no way back in the life, so I will live my life as long as I’ll be able too. With all my memories – good or bad – from the past.